Sunday, March 22, 2009

Happy Mothers Day!

A day not just to celebrate and appreciate our own mother (wonderful woman that she is :) but a day for us mothers to reflect on what it means for us too.

Handmade chocolates next to my computer this morning made me smile, she's a wonderful daughter and I'm truly lucky to have her. Funny, creative, intelligent and gorgeous :)

It made me take a look back and feelings of not only love for her arose but guilt also appeared. Guilt for so many things, how I could have done it better, given her more attention when she needed it, made better choices for her and it all got rather jumbled up.

The guilt of her being an only child is enormous though she has always assured me she is grateful for that but if she knows no different how can she tell? I feel a closeness to my two sisters she will never know, ah well, c'est la vie.

And of course I blame myself for her diabetes, there must have been something I could have done, not done, spotted sooner, acted quicker, bleurgh, more useless guilt.

Ok, enough of this, soften and flow, away with the bad feelings, I forgive myself for everything, time to clear the decks for a lovely day together.

Hope you have a good Mothers Day too :)

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